Of my own free will, I will watch romantic comedies. By myself. And I will most likely cry at the happy ending.
Yes, I'm a sucker for a happy ending, but there is one main reason why I enjoy these movies.
I believe in falling in love. Not necessarily love at first sight, but I believe in falling in love. Maybe it's the couple that you never imagined would end up together, or the couple that was clearly made for each other. Okay, well, maybe that is clear to everyone else but the couple.
I want to fall in love so bad it hurts sometimes. I don't want to date, really. I want to be in a relationship. Can't I just skip the whole dating thing?
See, while I was in college, I would observe the girls in my classes. I guess you could say that my classes were the first couple of dates. When I worked up the nerve to actually ask somebody in one of my classes out, it was because I already wanted to date that person, not just go on a date. Most of the time they didn't know it, but when I asked a girl out for the first time, I was really declaring my intentions to date her. Does that make sense to anybody else besides me?
The ultimate conclusion being, now that I'm out of college, it's a lot more difficult for me. It's not that I don't want to go out, it's that I have been deprived of my natural observation period. I'm not good at getting to know someone. It takes time for someone to get used to me, to get to know me.
So, I don't know, I guess you can draw your own conclusions from this. I just wanted to get it out there, try to explain what dating is like for me.
I just want to meet someone I can fall in love with. Is that too much to ask?
I tend to discover new things about myself in the books I read, the music to which I listen, and the movies and tv shows I watch. I'm going to discuss these discoveries here. I may occasionally deviate from this plan, but that's my choice, right?