Saturday, March 22, 2008

I Now Want to Visit....

Kansas City, to visit their Central Public Library, but only to see their parking garage.

No, really.

Check it out:

In the first picture, the books that jumped out at me were Lord of the Rings, of course, and Charlotte's Web. In the second, the book titled "Children's Stories" includes Goodnight Moon and, my personal favorite, "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz." It also includes my friend Julie's favorite book "Farenheit 451."

Quite the selection. I want to go.

Is that sad to want to visit a city just to see a parking garage?

Friday, March 21, 2008

Sleeping.... in, a lack of.

I can't frickin' sleep.

The older gentleman I live with is having serious problems. I came home about an hour later than normal, and he was stuck in his chair. He couldn't get up by himself. I could barely lead him to the bathroom. His feet just wouldn't go.

He managed to get from the bathroom to his bedroom, which is right next to the bathroom, but when I went in a little later to give him a new medication, I found him half-naked, lying on the floor. I didn't hear him fall, so when he fell, it was probably from a sitting position on the bed.

I managed to get him dressed in pajamas and into bed.

I'm worried about him, because it feels like he's given up. Thinking about it, I think he realizes that due to his body not functioning, he's not going to be able to stay at home. He would need a full-time, professionally-trained caretaker, which I am not.

This also means that my current living situation most likely will not last much longer. Which adds a lot more stress to my life. More decisions that need to be made.

More self-recriminations for not doing better at saving and for using most of those savings to take a much-needed trip.

I have no idea what I'm going to do, or even what I'm going to need to do, and it scares me.

I can't sleep.....

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Graduate School.... apparently not for me at this time, as I was just rejected by UTEP.

If I let myself dwell on it too long, I may become depressed.

So that is all for now.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008


You know, sometimes it seems no matter how you plan, or what you arrange to make things work, they never do.

Example one: Nearly every day, either arriving to or leaving work, I see this cool bird that I haven't been able to identify. I also see a little covey of quail on a regular basis. And some rabbits. And I work in Tempe, AZ, which combines with Phoenix, Mesa, and several other cities to form this huge, metropolitan area. You wouldn't think I would see wildlife like this, but I do. So I decide to take pictures, so I can show what I see, as well as try to get the one bird identified.

As soon as I start taking my camera to work, I don't see any of these animals. They have all disappeared. Well, I managed to get a picture of a rabbit, but I wanted the others more.

Example two: I went to a car audio store to purchase my new cd player and get it installed. To install it, they had to order an installation kit to help it fit my dash. They said it would be in Tuesday. So I called today, not there, and I was told Thursday. Well, Thursday doesn't really work for me, details to follow, so I stop by after work to double check. They tell me it may be in tomorrow. So there's hope, I guess, because I really want to get this installed soon!

Example three: Last November I sent a letter to Taco Bell, including a SASE and a letter with my new address so I could get my W2 for the month and a half I worked there in 2007. By February 23, I still hadn't received the W2, so I call, get a hotline number, and then get a new address to send another SASE. I anticipated when I mailed it in November, because when I worked there, I remember seeing a posting in the office to send it off early, to get the W2 on time. So now, every time I think about trying to file my taxes, I get extremely irritated because I can't without the W2 that includes information from a month and half of work. Gah!

The good part, the thing that keeps me going, is that on Thursday, after I get off, I am flying to Denver to spend the weekend with my sister, Andi! Hooray! I haven't seen her for a couple years, so I'm really looking forward to this trip. And I've never been in Denver, so that's a good thing, too. Once I fly in on Monday, I will drive to Utah to visit my parents and my brother. The last time I saw my brother was about two years ago when he left for Afghanistan.

So you can see why I really want my new cd player. I want to have it for my trip! I guess if I have to, I can get it installed on Monday after I fly in, but that's not my preferred scenario.

Hooray for paid vacation!